My, How Plans Change

I'm just going to say it.  I'm a planner.  I like to have everything figured out, mapped out and planned out.  I like to be in control.  Like to know what's going to happen, and when.  And I don't like change.  Well, you get the idea.  But it seems like no matter what plans I plan for myself, as good as they may seem to me, God has other plans.  I was not planning on living in Texas.  Ever.  But here we are.  I was not planning on getting pregnant until I was ready, in my time, but I got pregnant with my daughter after only 11 months of marriage.  Then, I was not planning on having another child for quite some time, but obviously God had other plans.  And I certainly was not planning on going into preterm labor and watching my son spend his first three months of life in a hospital NICU.  No, those were not my plans at all.  But I love it here in Texas, am absolutely CRAZY about my children, and grew closer to God during the most difficult three months of my life thus far.

And although I fully trust in God's plan, and would quite prefer it to my own, I do not always like it when I'm in the moment.  I don't always like not being able to see the end result.  I don't always like not knowing the purpose behind it, or not being able to see the big picture. 

So sometimes, the only thing I can rely on and rest in is the fact that God knows best, is in control, and has a good and righteous plan for my life.

"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them."  Romans 8:28 

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  Jeremiah 29:11

"Also we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to His purpose who works all things after the counsel of His will,"  Ephesians 1:11 

There have been so many things in my life recently that I did not plan, or honestly, could have even imagined.  Sometimes, I have been able to embrace God's plan courageously, and other times I have cried out in fear and anger.  But always, I come back to the truth of scripture and meditate on God's word.  I know that whatever God calls us to do, or whatever circumstances He brings about in our life, ultimately, it will bring Him glory.  I may not understand all the "why's" or all the "how's" or even like the road that God is taking us down at times.  But in the end, He will be glorified, and that's all that matters.  And I choose to rest in His truth, and His plan.